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Thursday, June 23, 2005*

The world is racing.

I've seen the world evolved around me. People change as they grow older. The way they change might send a shocking revelation. All of these are just the ups and downs of life. Some changes also seem too abrupt and of desperation. I can't help but to realise this. All of them, they've changed. Or is it that maybe, I am the one who is lagging behind. I observe other persons turn into such beautiful young beings. Me? I don't have an image to boot. Or maybe I don't need one. Maybe I didn't realise I have an image myself, I carry it on my back without noticing it. Maybe like the Umeboshi story Tohru told Kyo. Hmm. It's hard to decipher body language. It's hard to decipher yourself. You can decipher others because you can see the plus points others have, let alone minus points. The only time you can see yourself, literally and metaphorically, is through the device which can reflect you. The mirror. It tells you everything you want to know about you, how you look like, what kind of impression you leave. Other than that, the other mirror has got to be people's reaction towards you.
I wish I knew more about myself. Yet, there's nowhere to start from, from what I can see. Or is it just that time takes the pain away slowly? Patience is the key, I guess.

The reason to why I blabber about this ridiculous topic is because I still don't know where to go after my Os. People have been asking me where I'm going, what will I do after those rough roads and what can I offer the society? I just shrugged my shoulders, sometimes JC is the answer to that, which the image seems quite blurry for now. If I try harder, maybe what I say might turn into reality. If only I had the powerful determination, I could even go beyond the limits. My limits, nothing but the sky. Well, it's all in the mind, huh. I mean, nothing would be done or you won't move if you never put effort to it.
All "typed" but no movements, that's me for now. I bet, in 3 years time, no make it 2 years time, I won't be this sluggish rug I am right now.
Somehow, I really want to change but this damn laziness is pressing me down.
I guess, at the end of it all, it's just me. Again.

-Yet Again-

Those simple words to understand at~~2:14 AM

Persona

Run Anujra Etb Mirak
The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity
Your position and mine is separated by tears
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings
-Yi Lu Xiang Bei [Towards the North] from http://www.jaychou.net.portal